nevermind.

the human race just seems like a waste of time right now. im looking to hire someone to live my life for me. i will pay you in twinkies.

in a world full of flaky people you have to learn to deal with the pain and the joy of everyday life. we as people get so caught up in the pain, the one or two or maybe three crappy situatios we are  in. we sit and we dwell in the sorrow we allow people to put us through. im not saying that everytime we are upset it is our fault, but a lot of the time we get to choose whether or not we want to be offended, whether or not we want it to bring us down. it is so terribly hard to be standing in a tough spot and just simply smilie, but sometiemes that is all we really need. i mean some bridges just need to be burned so why do we make it such a big deal?  with every brdge you burn, with every bad situation you ct out of your life,there is a new one just waiting for you to find it, but we focus all of our attention on this broken path, this broken bridge that we don't even look for a new one. what can you really do with something that can't be fixed? you can leave it there for the memories but then it becomes a crutch, something we think we need, but it is just preventing us from venturing out there....trying to find or be something new. it's a leason that can't really be taught, it can be disscussed but you have to decided whether or not you want to learn it. and it is all easier said than done. it is so easy to sit on a couch and type on a computer about the real leasons we need in life but it is so hard to walk out the door, keep your chin up and just let life happen and try to enjoy it as much as possible. you never know whether or not that is the last door way you will ever step foot out of. so when you are so caught up in the bad situations in your life remember that there are a million good ones that you are in as well...and there are a million good memories that you haven't even thought about having. in this life the best thing we can do is just smilie and try to be happy. and try to cut off all the people and things around you that bring you down, because in retrospect, they aren't really the bridges you want to be crossing over all the time.

so i am writing for a new magazine in springfield. that's right.

evamarie the journalist.

God has been working in crazy ways, let me tell you what. i'm so thankful that i have an awesome loving and forgiving Father.

he is serious cool.